DAY 342 - How Can You Do That to Me?

Today's Reading: Exodus 32

Please read Exodus 32 and listen to what the Lord Jesus Christ would like to tell you before reading my Spiritual Journal below. If you would like to learn a simple and good way of Daily Devotion method please read my “Count Down 5” from this blog. You may click this link directly for the method:Subject Shifting Devotion.pdf. (You may begin with a song to praise the Lord and complete you devotion by singing another praise song.)

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Please click the links below to Exodus 32:

Chinese: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Exodus 32&version=CUV

NIV: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Exodus 32&version=NIV

ESV: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Exodus 32&version=ESV

Message: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Exodus 32&version=MSG

Moses said to Aaron, "What did these people do to you, that you led them into such great sin?" Exodus 32: 21

After all the training, caring, loving and experiencing and yet Aaron and the Israelites could do that to God and Moses! And so did Judas to Jesus and so did many, many more!

I felt how deeply God was hurt, expressed through his painful word, "How can you do that to me?"

If Aaron could do that, if all those Israelites could do that, if Judas could do that, do you think you would be an exception? Do you think that I could be an exception? We sin, and yet lots of time we don't even know and think that it's others' fault or even God's fault!

I am very sad, unhappy and deeply hurt today. Even to a point almost of being angry at God.

Today the doctor asked Michelle to lie flat on the bed to have the bone marrow and I saw everything I did not want to see. Last time she was laying sideway with the back facing the doctor so I could not see most of the terrible scene but not today. The process was really very, very horrible, especially three times the doctor drilled with a long steel hand-drill making the whole bed shaking like a 6.5 earthquake for at least 10 seconds every time. I felt so painful, sad and helpless holding Michelle's hand, seeing her painful face. I started to have lots of questions. Why this, why that and lots of angry thoughts that were not helpful at all.

Praise the Lord that I felt that the hand of God was on me all the time comforting me. And yet I have no way to let the sadness to go away. I have to admit that I am a human and I need some time to be still. So I answered no telephone, I didn't want to do anything but I needed a space to have some "holy rest" and to be with Michelle. She is fine for she is very strong, stronger than me! And they had lots of "morphine" pills and injections to make her unable to feel the pain. She didn't see the horrible scene but I saw it all! It is a blessing that I did not have an heart attack. The doctor already warned me saying, "Are you afraid of needles?" I nearly wanted to tell her that I am a bishop and I have seen lots of things and I am not afraid of anything. Ha, too proud! Today I understand that I am just a human and if not for Jesus, I would become a different person after seeing this kind of suffering to my loved one! Jesus carried me through!

The good news is the doctor said she can have the report next Monday, and most probably the report should be with zero cancer cell, and the tube in her heart can be removed at that time. Please pray that she really will have a good report and that the tube can be removed next Monday and she can lead a normal life!

Please do me a favor today, don't leave now but click the link and sing "Still" with Michelle and me!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mgob5afanUg

**The picture was taken in front of White House, DC when we had our 25th Wedding Anniversary honey moon in February 2010, six months before the actual date, July 13, 2010. We were in DC 24 years ago and we wanted to have another visit after 24 years. Praise to the Lord that if we waited until July then we could not make any trip at all! This is how God's way of comforting me now as to remind me of how He is in control.

Dear Holy Spirit,

Comfort me, heal me and fill me so that I will not step in those traps to sin, to be angry at you and other people. Help Michelle to get through this storm. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

My son, Ignatius, is in Ethiopia for a three weeks mission. He has been accepted by Regent College to start his Master of Divinity degree program this coming September. Please click this link to read his wonderful sharing: http://21ethiopiandays.wordpress.com/

To encourage you to click his blog, here are the first few lines of his sharing a few days ago in his blog and some pictures. That is so awesome!

HELLO HOLY SPIRIT!

July 13, 2010, 3:42 am
Filed under: General

It’s such a joy to witness the awesome power of the Holy Spirit moving among the Christians here. As we were worshiping at Dukum MKC church, there was so much singing, shouting, dancing, and a glorious exaltation of Jesus. The Holy Spirit is working so powerfully among the people here and no one holds back in worship.

Free. Full-hearted. Open. Jubilant.

That is worship.

Although I did not understand a word they say (with the exception of Jésus), I was worshiping in spirit and in truth. Can you imagine a church made of mud and steel plating, and yet it is FILLED with passionate worshipers who want only to praise God with their whole heart, body, mind, and soul? WOW!

Yesterday we went to visit 2 homes. At the first house we visited a girl and her sister, cousin, and mom...

Please click this new link to watch Athanasius' violin recital(June 7, 2010) with me playing the piano:

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Prayer items today:

For ACiC/AI

Bishop: Rt. Rev. Silas Ng (Michelle)

Network Leader: Rev. Peter Klenner (Jenny)

Network Leadership Team: Rt. Rev. Silas Ng, Rev. Peter Klenner, Rev. Ed Hird (Janice),

Rev. Simon Neill (Jo), Rev. Ken Bell (Sonya)

Bishop's Chaplain: Rev. Ed Hird (Janice)

Clergy Formation Advisor: Rev. Ken Bell (Sonya)

Administrator: Mrs. Zenia Cheng (Clarence)

Pray for one AMiA bishop one day at a time

The Rt. Rev. Thaddeus Rockwell (Thad) Barnum (Erilynne)

Pray for one ACiC/AI church one day at a time

The Light of Christ Church, Nanaimo

Rector/Senior Pastor: Rev. Kathy King

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Twitter version: http://twitter.com/bishopsilasng

Welcome! The purpose of this blog is to encourage Christians to have daily devotion - a wonderful and intimate time with Jesus.

There are three reasons for you to use this blog as your daily devotion:

1. A healthy spiritual diet - One chapter of the Bible daily. We really need at least one chapter of Bible daily so that we are well fed.

2. A good example of Spiritual Journaling - What I have committed for 1,189 days(the Bible has 1,189 chapters)to write this daily post is not for teaching purposes but this is my daily spiritual journal - I write down what I hear from Jesus and how I experience His intimate relationship with me each day. I have launched a wide-spectrum research on daily devotion and have found out that there are less than 10% of Christians that are having daily devotion. Out of that 10%, many having daily devotion are doing so because of guilt (they know that they are Christians and need to have daily devotion and feel guilty if they don’t do that), duty (they need to fulfill their duty as a Christian) or study(lots of Christians primarily use their daily devotion as a time to study the Bible). I do pray and hope that you will make up your mind to have a relational daily devotion so that you can have an intimate time with Jesus. I pray that you will write your own spiritual journal as well.

3. An online discipler – One of the reasons that so many Christians do not have daily devotion is because they do not have a discipler. A discipler can help them build up this basic element of discipleship when they first become Christians. The best way for you is to have a discipler to walk with you for a certain period of time so that daily devotion become a good habit. Or, you may have a small group of two to three people to encourage and be accountable to each other so that you won’t stop your daily devotion. I offer myself as your online discipler to walk with you daily to enrich your spiritual journey. So, shall we start this journey with Jesus Christ our Lord now!

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